The Disease of Me

To quote Tom Patrick back in the U of W days, "The disease of me" is when you think that people are always looking at YOU, talking about YOU, staring at YOU, making fun of YOU etc etc.

I had an attack of the disease of me when I was at the bank paying my bills through the machine. It being in Korean of course I have to remember which buttons to press in order for it to work.
I usually take a little longer than the average person and there was an ajuma behind me and I could feel her looking at me and kind of watching what I was doing.

The disease of me is thinking, ok she's staring at you b/c you're big and strange looking to her and she's thinking hurry up you stupid waygook.

Feeling uncomfortable I hurried to finish. When I finally did, I looked at her and smiled.

She was actually staring at me b/c she didn't know how to use the bill paying machine and was watching me to see what I was doing.

I felt so dumb.

I showed her how to put her bills in and then called over the bank helper person to help her with the rest that required language that I do not have.

Your brain is so funny sometimes. I'm getting a little worked up about this woman "watching" me and thinking I'm a freak but she was just wondering how to use the bloody machine!

Perception. It's everything!!